Lambda

I guess it was a date. He paid for dinner.

This time, ladies and gentlemen, the guy was 26. Yes I have moved away from those dramatic little boys. I failed to heed my own warning. BTW the 19 year old is having some conflict with some love interest triangle that I'm glad I'm not a part of. But it's nice to hear him vent to me for advice.

He was your average San Jose Viet guy with a good job and a fade. He was a closeted Lambda with a nice bulky body, deep thug voice and rug burns from wrestling with his bros.

"So when people talk to you, can they tell you're gay?" He asked me online.
"No.. I'm just Asian, but I guess people eventually figure it out." Great... I have to use my Kragen voice all night. I know my gay boys would be laughing at me watching my interaction trying so hard to substitute my "HEEEEY's" with "Dude" and my "OMG's" with "That sucks man, not cool." *grunt*

"That's cool. You know, femmes remind me a lot of those Crazy Viet girls I've dated... loud and dramatic with all this excessive attitude."
"Hahaha."

Over the phone he sounded cool. He was a guy guy. He was a Azn Frat Bro. He was SO not my type. But I decided to give it a go... he was interested, why not?

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Once again he was more attractive in person than his picture by a lot. God, he was such a Lambda, he was telling me about hazing and parties. The only common ground we had was "working out." Sort of. As we talked, I was trying hard to be "different from the guys he usually sees"... I wanted to actually be something interesting or worthwhile.

He invited me over after dinner. I was thinking dinner and a movie?
I had to sneak into his room and then.............. he turned off the lights (after showing me where to hide in the closet if his housemates were to wake up). I should have known.

When we were done, he asked me to leave because he was paranoid one of his housemates would wake up.

We became eachother's unsubstantial number.

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And that was that.
I'm eventually getting it. My straight guy fetish has led me to "date" these dudes who just need a quick fix because their girlfriends are lacking something. It's not hot anymore... it's sort of sad.

I need to feel like I click with someone again, then hooking up would actually mean something and feel better than just a quick fix. But at least I had "tea & coffee" with him first... so it's legit.



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SO that's how things work. You go on a date you find out there's no chemistry you invite them over to "collect something out of it." And you're done... no questions asked. OR You go on a date, hit it off completely get a good night kiss and look forward to actually having a relationship... and giving it up when the moment is right.

Hmm. Either way, I guess it's just fun to be dating.