- Flatten tummy so that I don't get that undertummy shirt fold *vomits*
- Harden my pecs so that it feels good to cup them
- Fit my pants
The internal goals:
- Feel more confident
- Have more energy
- Be ambitious
But it took until today for me to get into my neighborhood olympic pool because I couldn't find my goggles. It's interesting how we make excuses for ourselves.
I found my goggles last night (found them where I left them) and I made it a point to wake up at 6:30 and swim for as long as I could and thanks to the help of the hot weather, I was pushed out of bed. After the swim, I looked at myself in my skin tight trunks that ended 2 inches after my crotch on my thighs... "not too bad," I thought. And as self absorbed as this may sound, I was craving sex because I felt confident even though my aesthetic goals are far from being reached. Epiphany: sex is amazing when you feel confident about yourself, you can perform... you are not shy or hesitant. You are an animal... RAWRRRR! an alpha dog.
This is what I need. I was getting bored of my daily routine and I hope to maybe meet some neighborhood friends who frequent the morning. Swimming is my sex. Much like how dancing is Ern's sex. Photography/Classical Music is Jimmy's sex and I believe Video Games is Sam's sex? :]
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